t.q

thanks you a lot,mum..
i promise i'll earn lot of money in future..
i promise i'll remember that how good you were treat me..
i love you so much..
thanks a lot..

...

is wondering..
i'm scare..wish god bless me..

=)

i had a great time with all my pretty girls..
♥ lily
♥ ice
♥ yen yee
♥ hoong ping
♥ shee may

how much i wish that i can have this kind of gathering again..
you all are awesome,be more charming,intelligent,naughty than before..
i love this..=) all my sweetie,must keep going on our friendship,ya..~
don't try to spoil and destroy it..i would love you and appreciate you all forever..

and last,i need to appointed some thing..
i had went a bored party,gosh..but anyways,wish that birthday girl enjoy her life..
and of course,''happy birthday in advance,my dear sau yan..

hurt..

he is a not romantic guy totally..sigh,i should admited it..
he is focusing his hobbies,matching,studying and everythings,exclude me..=(
i damn defeat,right?

or might be we have no more sentiment..or else,i not beside him..?but impossible..you know,even tht he is beside me,however,he wont o treat me like princess..i should acceptance it..he won't be change,i guess..

whatever now,feel so sleepy even that i felt so angry now..but,useless..
just try me best to achieve my aim,perhaps,this only the thing that i can do right now.
don't think too much,every things gonna be fine soon..calm down..~

o.m.g

the worst feeling is coming around me..
gosh..i think,i have to get some actions to achieve my aim..
it's important for me,right now..

''M'',when you wanna come back my site and belong to me..
i need you so much..

miss all my dearest chin's member..

hehe,nice edition,right??muahaha~

and the next,

=) have a nice day..

20/06/2010

i'm confusing for my future way..
before,i would like to be an airhostess,but my mummy was not allowed me..
before,i would like to be a beautician too,but she said,it's can't to earn more&more money..

however,for now,she just agree me to be airhostess or beautician already..but,how should i to do?what's choice should i to do?

some more,how should i explain to ''him''..oopppsss,totally complicated..
i can't to put my relation down,but i can't to put my career down too..suck..faint**
blur..gosh,please help me..=) i'm waiting the answer,always..

is less contact with my beloved currectly because he is busying to prepare his exam..(his exam is around the corner..)

how was bored am i?gosh,freaking bored..
almost be a die people here..^(*@*)^
but,i miss him so badly..this feeling never ever appear in my life before..

wish july is passing soon,then i can meet him up..
waiting waiting and waiting.
the only thing that i can to do now..=(

btw,i wish may go to taiwan on december too..
take some accessories to sell..good luck,ya~

and,

how is my new look??is it nice and suitable to me?
but i still can't to accept it..
it's showing me that i'm so young..haha..
need to wait for my long hair back..=)

f*uck off..

pissed me off..
he never know how come i'll so angry today..!
he just care his exam,okay,i understood..
still,i saw him facebook~ing there,even he get free here..
but never,find me here..!
i'm not care anymore..

i'll be solve my things..
you've to wait!!!!!!!!!!
i really disappointed on you!!!

to you..!

please tolerance me if i've tell somethings indelicacy words..
but i totally can't to tolerance her attitude even she is my elder..f*** off..

my home bussiness is not your problem at all..you've no authority to intervence about it..you just like a bitch when you're appearing in my life..please stop to make the problem out and say somethings useless there..you never know,how much i hate you..

i promise myself here,i'll triumph over you on one day..
you've to wait not over than this 3 years,i'll make you regret what did you said to my mum and dad..let's see..

piss me off..

he got time to play fb..
but son't have time to find me..
what the f***..!!!

now i just realise about it..@@''
pissed me off..!!!
huh,let's see,i wont bother you right now..

14/06/2010 is moody

i don't know why,i felt pissed off to some one..
it's don't have any reason..
and i don't know why i had this kind of feeling..
it's make me feel so wrench & down..
or maybe,just because of a nightmare..it's so scary..!
so,today,i just don't try to chat with him..
as i know,if continu to chat,surely will be argue..
i just try to escape it..the best way..~

i heard a good song and it can express my feeling:
2am and the rain is falling
here we are at the cross roads once again
you're telling me you're so confused
you can't make up your mind
this is meant to be you're asking me
but only love can say
try again or walk away
but i believe for you and me
the sun will shine one day
so i'll just play my part
and pray you'll have a change of heart
but i can't make you see it through
that's something only love can do

in your arm as the dawn is breaking
face to face and thousand mines apart
i've tried my best to make you see
there's hope beyond the pain
if we give enough if we learn to trust
but only love can say
try again or walk away
but i believe for you and me
the sun will shine one day
so i'll just play my part
and pray you'll have a change of heart
but i can't make you see it through
that's something only love can do

i know if i could find the words
to touch you deep inside
you'd give our dream just one more chance
don't let this be our goodbye
but only love can say
try again or walk away
but i believe for you and me
the sun will shine one day
so i'll just play my part
and pray you'll have a change of heart
but i can't make you see it through
that's something only love can do
that's something only love can do

is meaningful for me..
especially who's thousand mines apart from me..

actually is feeling for yesterday..:p

is the first day i on my way..
wish me to success,ya..?
even though that it's not so easy for me..
but,i believe i can triumph over it all..
good luck to me..

i quite not so satisfied some one..
but i can't said anythings about *her*..
because of some reasonable reason..argh..
wish she can think it carefully..
discontented exponent-85%..

gonna to see my dear..
dear cousins,friends,and you..
but i can't separate myself here..
be patient,ya..i'll manage to find time to see you guys..*wink*

...

is non-stopping to watch world cup on this few days..
haha~~

totally make me exhausted on it..!but quite interesting there..=)

today,i had been success to make an eyes skill here..
wow,it's not bad,thumb up to myself..prove of it..*wink*

is the time yo sleep,good night..

=(

he made me down again..
speechless..

i don't wanna share any my feeling now..
is moody..totally out of my mood..
even that world cup is coming on..~

thank you,aunty..=)

btw,today kim's mummy was bring some drinks to me..
i feel that so ashamed..
so,i'll try my best to treat her well..
of course,treat her son more well too..
they are kinda good actually..

i'm happy that they're friendly to me..
great that i meet them guys on my life..
of course,thankgiving god to gave me this all the things..
i'll be appreciated it..

*10/06/2010

haha..just went back with my cousin from dinner..
i'm totally full..it's meant that my diet way was failed AGAIN..
shit..!!but never mind,just promises for this time..
lolxxx..

is trying to call my uncle on tomorrow..
to help my cousin ask some the way to take the accessories to sell..
still,wish she may come true to earn the money there..:p

the way still need to go..
try my best to help her,may us will be success..cheersss..
love,ya..~

still have 2 months more..
my birthday is coming soon..
just hope,i can be a big big girl..:p
no more childish there..*wink*

09/05/2009

first day to process on my diet..=(

- my breakfast & lunch set:a bowl of fondue's food with soup..
plus:2 handmade muffins..

-my dinner set:as same as my lunch set..(bowl of fondue's foods)
plus:wanna eat an apple later..

i don't think the meals is less calorie there..
arghhhh..need to do exercise later too..:p

%you'll be only one..

do you guys know,if let some one to discriminated..
you'll be angry and helpless..
i'm the sample..not only me..
but,for me,i just feel that they just said the pointless things..
they will be regret what did they say before..god will be punish them,god is fair..

however,is the time to wake me up..
still have lot of things to follow on..
omfg,is freaking rush to all the works..!!!(is inconvenience to tell you all here..:p sorry..)
btw,for my age,suppose started to earn money or some things..
however,see,i still so free here..haha~
because i have a good parents in my whole life..*thumb up*

besides,i feel quite tiredness currently..
i don' know what's wrong to me..=(
or maybe,a lazy warm already immerge my bone..
make me be laziness here..
however,i won't be surrender..
i'll triumph up the lazy worm..:pppp

*fine,the decision of today is-
i'll change myself from now..
change to another me..
no one will be recognize me more..
let's see,guys..

p/s:you're the only one..
no matter how's look & attitude you're..
trying be the top & the best on this world..
this the way you need to go..

..D way..

on the way to Diet..
no doubt,my weight is non-stopping to grow up..
it's make me feel disappointed..

from now,just try to control my appetite..
i must keep well on my weight..
must make more effort,i know,i can do it well..XDDD

...

i was scared let other abandon me..
or other way is,
let i abandon other gone..

i hate alone..
and some one who always ignore me
and piss me off some more..!

..fool..

a little bit tiredness about you..
you're never thinking when you want to talk..
remember,is you asked me that don't go to melbourne more..
fine,i'll respect your decision..

actually,i feel hopeless and disappointed..
i just get nothings from your side..
i don't know,where am i on your mind..
who am i on your mind too?or just a friend..??

you know,you gave me a feeling..
we like friend more than a couple..
a closed mate or closed friend else..

i knew,you're preparing your exam now..
howver,i never get any concernation from you since before..
is pointless,you know????'i'll tired too..
i'll give up some day too..
even that how much i grudge to do it so..
i would to tell you,distance & time will change our mind..
as same as like time you told me,
you're not love me like before..
until now,i still can't to forget it..!

=)

is long time didn't blogging here..
is lot of things was fun currently..

this morning,i had a breakfast at ''yi po lou shu fen'' with my dear siew peng..
after that,we turned to t2 to buy some shoes..
rawww,the result is not so bad,i had been buy a pair of short heels shoes,i felt it's quit beauty for me..:p

the third round i had been went to jusco to buy some make up products..the most i like of the brand is mac..maybeline..elianto..etc..awww,it's spend lot of my money there..but i would enjoyed it..=)
*around 4pm here,we went back to our home..=)

at 6pm here,they was reached my home.we are discussing to dye our hair..so excited..
however,the result is not so good,the colour was not so evidence..sadness..then,we were make up ourself here to prepare our dinner at italian restaurant..wow,the taste of that restaurant is totally nice..yummy yummy yummy..:p

when i back home,already 10pm more here..i tried to call my boy friend to chat..quit miss him actually..haha..now,i have to sleep,good night,peeps..
*i would upload some picture later..have to see..:p

..

我，不是想象中的那么坚强。。
我，也会有崩溃的那一天。。。
感觉，我俩面临着许多危机。。
然而，我并不晓得那天回我们分手的那一天。。

我，已经感觉到我俩的默契没了。。
我，已经感觉到你已不在乎我了。。
我们，并不再想从前。。
或许，我俩都改变了。。

..mood of today,is tiredness

i think i don't like accounting since i was trained at CAA there..
it's seems like not so funny& bored there,but i have no choice,because i need get the experience..:(

it's make me so exhausted,but i got lot of advantages there actually..
my colleagues is kinda friendly,however,i never trying to be good with them..:(
no why,just trying keep a distance with them,this is my duty,i guess..

today on the work,is not so bad..but i haven't done Maggie's job yet..
just try my best more on tommorrow..

i have no brave to measure my weight..i become more fatness than before a lot!!!shit!!i need to make more effort to diet..!!i think i'll success and do it well..

good night all,peeps..
sweet dream..=)

*wish friday is faster coming on..

confusing

today,i had a winter mood such same as weather of today..

i'm feeling not well,unhappy,sadness..and finally,cried over in my empty room..
i don't know what's the most important for me right now..totally failed be human..it's getting hurt..i just like a bitch..!!

i'm totally out of mood today..
boyfriend is gone and angry me..i knew,he hates me..
but wish he understand me,i love him so much..!!!!i don't wanna leave him,and of course,i wish you stay with me until end of my life..but will you wait for me??

my cousin has suggest me open a shop with her..
for gain money here...it's heard like good and lot of advantage there..but still need to think it again..it's may change my life there,as i know..

pinky,suddenly i miss you so much..even thought i just met you for few days..how are you now?did other doggies to bully you..you must be strong,i can't to provide you..you no more safe haven,try to alive there..i'm sorry that i can't to help you..this is my sorriness and shame on you forever and ever..little pinky,take good care..wish god bless you there..little pinky,i love you too,i hope,you can understand me.i regret that i havent take a photo with you,i miss you badly..

money..studying..and boyfriend..all of this i wanna and i wish that to keep together and stay with me..however,it's impossible together belong to me..this world is unfair,pointless..is the time to make me up,to be stronger..i knew myself,it can't come true..

..to my beloved

i'm trying my best to do well all the things..
is the time to awake,not because only myself,is to both of you..
is the time to replan,for the future coming..
is the time to resume,for set up our living style..
is the time to renew,for become a mature girl and be with you..

i love you and never ever try to change my mind..
i'll follow you no matter where you are..
i'll support you at all no matter what's you choice for..
i'll be with you no matter how much hardship we've to meet..
i'll try to be your girl start from now..

i would like the decision what did i make for..
is no more argue and any things will be happen..

..shuck..

i'm confusing about our relation..it's make me feel stress..totally,i'm tired..i'd been tried to change my temper and my attitude..but you never to know..make the error and pusish it on me..how disappointed i felt on you..do you know it?

you just know that you tried your best on your duty how to become a good boyfriend..however,you're not so mature like you think yourself there..such a childish..come on,stop the stupid action in front of me..for me,i felt you only know how to care yourself,your feeling..but why,don't try to listen my mind,try to understand me more..

i felt stress indeedly..get it..sometime,your action and your thinking make me feel nausea..just continue be a child..i hate be a mama..!!!!

..replan..resume..turn over our new leaf..

well,i thought we had a great communication on today..at least i felt that..
how to love a boyfriend..??

1.believe to each other..

2.even where he goes,shouldn't to ask..must has some private time for them..of course,for us too..

3.love their parents too..just because will become a family..by your cordiality,they will love you too..

4.don't be ask somethings when feel they are sadness there..just hug them and said,i love you..

5.just let's they show off in front of them..because he need the dignity..

6.they won't say ''sorry'' easier,because they want a stage to go down..but they will be remember their fault and try the other way to rescue..

7.don't ask them bring you to go any gathering with their friends..they need some of memories those with their friends..and some private time with them..

8.don't scold them loudly,because their mind still like a kid even has a strong body..just try to calm down together..after that,try to say somethings those can make them feel it's warm and feel you love him so much..

of course,i felt it's work..and obviously,i'm a failed girlfriend..i never ever think all the opinion above..but i'm trying now..so,good luck to me success be a good girlfriend..this the chance for me to be learn how to be a good girlfriend..of course,good luck to you guys too..=)

..the people you love the most is not might be your partner on your life..

i was totally shuck that you told me the quato like this:you might be find a person who older than you,then you can get anythings..!! bullshit..non-sense..where is your brain,behind your ass there..?you never ever know that you hurt mw..!!!!

i totally disappointed while you said you need to calm down..this is the second time that you said it to me..enough is enough..obviously,you are not really serious in our relationship..did you remember that what's the meaning of calm down that you describe to me?? meant broke up..you were broke our promise..i was told you before,that's the last chance and never will get the new chance..however,finally,broken it again..

you only care youself,your feeling..what's the status am i on your mind??i never to know..i love you,but you don't know..and misunderstood the meaning of ''love''.. you never get it..

..happiness..

is met kah yen and yeeling today,at parkson..we had been talk non-stopped there..rawwww,it's was been past long time ago we didn't do that again..miss the memories we have..=)

but this time we were changed to other,be more mature..especially is you,chan kah yen..the news that you told us,you're serious about the marriage..lolx..but anyways,good luck to my dear,wish you have a great life with your hubby..congratulations that you've to found a guy who love you and suitable with you..
wish you luck that hoping your parent will accept your boyfriend too..i always support you and besides you..no worry..=)

hew yeeling,i won't forget that you're 18years old every year..as same as me..XDDDDD..next weekend,genting trip..i want to join you all..=) wait for me..darlings..